I feel very disorganized and spent an hour trying to pack my suitcase. My difficulty is that I overpack.
I feel so out of it. My excitement is being overtaken by retrospectively thinking of my behaviour as of late. I feel like I am leaving with things unresolved, but my actions guaranteed that it's the way it's going to be. I have to live with that. An apology is just words.
I had a dream last night.
The final goodbye. The perfect goodbye.
I asked whether it was a dream or not. You said it was. It was time to let it all go. With a final perfect kiss, the dream fades and you're gone.
It felt like an out of body experience where I couldn't tell if it was real. There have only been a few instances where this has happened to me.
Is it weird that a dream gives you more closure than the realistic situation? Or is it just because it was the ideal outcome?
