La La Gahhhh.

I cannot sleep because I am thinking of you.





And my future car.

WIN WIN!

After numerous successful attempts at Roll-up-the-rim-to-lose, I have FINALLY WON a coffee.
I can officially say that Roll-up-the-rim-to-win is now accurate.

bus sex.

I am sitting in a seat on the bus and a random question came to mind - I wonder how many different buses and how many seats on these buses I have sat on have been used as a sex cushion. I have taken many bus rides in my existence and I bet there are more bus-horny people out there than one would care to admit. Ew.

A Little Push.

I seem to have lost my motivation to do anything lately. It is truly pathetic.
However, the one thing that I am motivated to do, and have been doing for the last week or so is to go for a jog everyday. I find that i can get out my frustration of myself and the world around me with some music and concrete underneath my feet. I actually jogged 5KM today. I was pretty impressed with myself that I could just go for 35 minutes straight without feeling like I wanted to hurl. It does make me feel better about things going on, even just for a brief period of time.

On top of that, I cannot even listen to some of my favorite music right now because it makes me think of you. I do not want to think of you at all, considering we lead so completely different lives and have absolutely no future, but I can't seem to get your perfect face out of my mind.
Cruel.

Yikes.

So, at work tonight I served a very strange man... He kind of seemed like a pedophile type and was with his wife (who seemed quite normal).

He included his entire life story, including:
- His failed marriage
- The ex-wife who was a crazy drug addict
- The ex-wife who had been to rehab 6 times
- The ex-wife that was sleeping with their family doctor
- The ex-wife's doctor who he SUED for sleeping with his wife
- The lawsuit he WON
- How incredibly dysfunctional his 28-year-old son is because of his ex-wife
- All of this happened 24 years ago
- The same year he married his current wife

Apparently, some people never get over things... This puts my life into perspective and how AMAZING it is compared to some.

Bottom line: NEVER tell people you are in psychology and interested in dysfunctional behavior. :S

Muahahahah!

I am pretty much amazing. I procrastinated until 10:00pm to do an assignment worth 25% of my grade. However, it is 11:56pm (4 minutes before it is due) and I am typing this message to remind myself how amazing I am. I completed an EIGHT page paper in less than 2 hours tonight.
I do not know why I worry so much about my grades, because it always seems that I can work better with less time to do it.

Through everything going on this past little while, I can go like this to the world.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I beat you this time :)


Another thing that made me enjoy today - I called Telus and complained about my past bill (which I am late paying by a week) and they deducted $30 off this month and they managed to cut down my bill by a total of $200/year. Don't ask me how, because I have absolutely no idea. But I am not complaining at all, I am just thankful that I had such a nice lady to speak to today!

Changing of Seasons.

I thought this beautiful weather would make me feel better about things, but it hasn't.
I thought getting out of the city would help, but it didn't.
I thought buying new expensive things would help, but it didn't for long.
Life is changing so much, and there are so many unknowns that I should be excited about, however I feel like I am leaving behind one thing that I will never forget. It is making me want to stay in bed all day and wait for something amazing to happen. It feels unbelievable when it is around, and when it's not, I feel empty.
I just need to keep reminding myself that I am leaving soon, and I have a second chance (well, more like 20th chance) to turn over a new leaf and be happy in my surroundings. Loneliness seems to be a really good friend of mine, but I would love to disown this friend and meet happiness and comfort and become best friends.
Here is to wishing upon a star.

Gah.

I really do not enjoy being included in work gossip.
Just for the record, most things you hear are NOT true.

Bike Ride!

So excited. I will be going on my first bike ride since last summer tomorrow. I probably should be studying for my midterm, but why not get some exercise. I hope the weather is nice...

I Agree.

we just want to remember the view from the top, the breathtaking moment at the edge of the world - that is what keeps us climbing. And it's worth the pain. It's worth everything.

Holy Cow.

News spreads fast around these neighborhoods.

Sad Song.

Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first and sometimes the first thing you want never comes.
I know waiting is all you can do sometimes.



Today I looked over beside me and someone was dressed the same, was carrying the same purse and talking on the same phone. Creepy.

Gone to sleep.

Sigh.
I am going to sleep after getting 2 B+ today.
Although I shouldn't be, I am going to sleep thinking of you.

Ahem?

Not so Fun.

After royally screwing up a due date for a submission worth 40% of my grade, I have been sitting in front of my computer for the past.. oh, 4 hours writing.
I have written 4000 words (15 pages) within this time.

My eyes are sore and I just want some chocolate cake!