I would just like to mention that this is MY blog, my entries. A couple special people have commented on what I have written.
My rebuttal.
I don't have to change any of my thoughts. If you don't want to see what I have to say, don't read it. It is very simple. I do not feel bad about being honest, nor do I care if you are hurt. If someone actually makes me want to erase them from my life, I don't want reminders of them. I can say this, I have never deleted all reminders of anyone I have dated. This is a first. I can't say why this is, but I think it has to do with never being so disgusted with someone I thought I cared about... Further, never been so disgusted with myself that I put up with their bullshit for as long as I did. Yes, I feel sick about the entire situation, but not for losing you. I feel sick for losing out on so much time and excitement trying to persuade you that I was everything you needed. I know you will go back to what you find comfortable, and in doing that, you will give away a lot of your self-preservation and integrity. I'm thankful this isn't my concern anymore. You can be an empty shell walking around, I hope that fills your day with the love and happiness you seem to want so badly. Unfortunately you are incapable of being what you want to be.
I really did have hope that you weren't the asshole everyone seems to think you are, but as usual you have proven me wrong. Congratulations, you have lost your one true supporter, your stability and love.
I don't think there is anything that you could do to persuade me otherwise.
I'm going to try to forget about the "what if" questions that will be going through my head over the next couple weeks, and concentrate on the "yes" comments I will be saying.
