Fear

PWhy are my moments of happiness fleeting and my moments of sadness feel endless? 

Am I just kidding myself that I could, someday, be happy? 

What a facade I create. 

It feels like I am reliving a bad dream, but I know this is life, and I will not wake up to something different. 

How does one learn to appreciate the highs and learn to conquer the devastating lows? 

My biggest fear is for this to continue being my biggest fault, and that it may destroy everything I try to build and, in turn, destroy me.

Paths

I passed you on the street today. Not long ago, our paths wrapped around each other. Now, we are traveling in two different directions, further and further away from what was, and what could have been. 

It is all becoming a distance memory now. 

Ideal.

To feel...

Loved (my other half)

Respected (best friend)

Desired (lover)

A combination of qualities difficult to find. 

I hope I do someday. 

Another one bites the dust.

I don't think I'll ever get this right.