I really miss sleep. Over the last week, I've had so much on my mind. Planning, finances, work, people... It's getting a little overwhelming. I just need to get through the next 6 days.
I'll see you again soon sleep. I will... Can't wait.

I wish I wasn't so weak. When did I become so vulnerable?

There are some days, including today, that I wish I was mute and not able to speak a word. Words are a strong thing, and I don't think I should have the permission to use them.

As much as I try to improve myself, I cannot wrap my head around thinking before saying.

Another person who I thought I knew chose to walk away from me today. To make matters worse , they didn't even respect me enough to tell me why. Instead they pretend I don't exist. I'm so incredibly confused. Why does this keep happening?

All the people that have claimed to love me, friends and family always find a way to close me out and forget about my existence.
What am I to do with that?

Love is something everyone just craves
Even if you loved and lost, and shed so many tears and have vowed to never do it again
You can't deny the fact that everyone loves love

Fear

PWhy are my moments of happiness fleeting and my moments of sadness feel endless? 

Am I just kidding myself that I could, someday, be happy? 

What a facade I create. 

It feels like I am reliving a bad dream, but I know this is life, and I will not wake up to something different. 

How does one learn to appreciate the highs and learn to conquer the devastating lows? 

My biggest fear is for this to continue being my biggest fault, and that it may destroy everything I try to build and, in turn, destroy me.

Paths

I passed you on the street today. Not long ago, our paths wrapped around each other. Now, we are traveling in two different directions, further and further away from what was, and what could have been. 

It is all becoming a distance memory now. 

Ideal.

To feel...

Loved (my other half)

Respected (best friend)

Desired (lover)

A combination of qualities difficult to find. 

I hope I do someday. 

Another one bites the dust.

I don't think I'll ever get this right.