Friday, November 20, 2015

Dark and gloomy.

Writing has always been an outlet for my thoughts, a window into my mind. However, I have not been writing at all, and I feel like I want to scream everyday. 

Today I feel like I'll never get it right; that my mind is too dark to let light in. It gets very lonely, even when I'm not alone. 
Today I feel like I'm the girl your friends tell you to shy away from, but you're too blind to see it yourself. Until, of course, I push you so far away, you have no choice but to see the true shade of darkness. 
Today I feel like I need to take three steps back, focus on something that i have been looking forward to, and then maybe i will be able to take an honest step forward. 

I hope it doesn't all come crashing down, but who wants dark and gloomy when they could have simple and beautiful ?